Gender: Male Age: 36 Location: Washington State
Ashley’s Diary Part 4: Party at Christmas Break
Ash walked into her room and threw her back pack on her bed and jumped down next to it. She stuck her face into her pillow and sobbed; she had started crying in the car and now she let it all come out. Ash hadn’t said a word as Linda told her of the events of the last couple weeks, Joey’s dad was dead, her sister was in the hospital and she was now going to be living with Linda.
Ash cried for Joey’s dad, she cried for her sister, she cried for Joey. She cried because she wouldn’t be going home again, she wouldn’t be going back to settle things with Joey, and she cried because of what had happened to her on Friday night. Now that she was home it all came crashing down on her. Her friends had helped her hold it together after they had found her but now she let out all the anger she had felt as the boys had raped her. She pushed her face into her pillow and screamed as loud as she could but it wasn’t enough.
Part of Ash had died in that lighthouse, they had taken from her something she couldn’t explain but it was lost. She sat up and started punching her pillows as her rage exploded out of her. She took her clothes out of the dresser and started throwing them against the wall with fury. She picked up her books now and started hurling them at the walls.
“What are you doing?” Linda exclaimed entering the room quickly having heard the noise, “Oh sweetie what’s wrong?” Linda asked worried seeing Ash’s face. Linda rushed to her sister and held her, “It will work out, and I know you’re sad about Lilly and the family but it’s going to be ok.”
“It’s…… it’s……… it’s not……………..” Ash stuttered through tears. She couldn’t tell her sister what had happened. She would be in just as much trouble for leaving camp and going to a party where she had been drinking.
“Its ok sweetheart, did something happen at camp?” Linda asked softly in understanding, still holding her sister. Ash nodded against her shoulder, “Do you want to talk about it?” Ash shook her head as she began to sob against Linda’s shoulder, “Its ok, you don’t have to tell me, just know you can if you need to.”
“Th…th…thank you,” Ash replied softly. The girls held each other for a while until Ash pulled away and sat on the bed. Linda told her she was going to make dinner and she stepped out. Ash pulled the blanket over her head and curled up into a ball. Laying there in bed she felt the loss of everything she had. She felt like she had been dumped here unwanted and in the way as she was now going to be living with the sister she let down, and near the boy she had betrayed. She hated herself now; she hated what she had done to the boys in her life and she was furious at what she had let happen to herself.
She got off the bed after some time, she was hungry and needed something sweet to eat, and maybe that would help her feel better. It was then she felt a sudden surge of panic and ran to the dresser, pulling the bottom drawer all the way out. Both items she had hid there were still where she had left them.
These two items were her most treasured possessions; she had only left them behind because she was afraid of losing them at camp. The first was a thin little box she picked it up looking inside before putting it in her pocket, and then she picked up the tattered slip of folded paper, putting it in her other pocket. With that done she walked out of the room to find something to eat.
After returning from camp Linda decided in light of everything that had happened Ash was allowed out of the house again during the day. She thought Ash had learned her lesson, saying the girl who returned home didn’t seem at all like the one she sent away. Ash didn’t have the heart or nerve frankly to tell her sister what had happened to her, after she had cried on Linda’s shoulder they never brought it up again.
The Monday after she returned Ash ran across the complex and knocked on Jt’s door.
“Come to say goodbye?” he asked bitterly.
“No I came to say I’m sorry and that I’m going to live with Linda full time now.”
“I don’t understand.” He stated and looked like his face had softened slightly.
Ash told him what had happened at Lilly’s home while she had been gone at camp. Jt looked sad and told her he was sorry. She hugged him when she was done talking he resisted at first then held her tight for a matter of minutes.
Ash told him that she was so sorry for leading him on and she felt bad about everything she then for some reason told him about what had happened at camp, she left most of it out but told him about the whole lighthouse incident. She didn’t know why she told him but she did, and then asked him to not tell anyone.
Jt was such a sensitive kid that he was horrified by the whole thing, he said he was sad she had almost died and he hugged her again. Ash told him that she really did like him a lot but she didn’t have the same feelings for him. She said that she would like it if they were best friends now that she was staying.
Jt sat quietly for a few minutes in thought then decided that he liked the idea of being friends with her. He said he felt special that she had talked to him about what happened to her, and that they could be just friends that had shared a secret special day. Ash liked that too and told him she would do her best to be a good friend this time and make it up to him.
It wasn’t long before Ash turned 16, her day had finally come. She waited by the phone all day long hoping Joey would call, if only to say happy birthday, but the call never came. That night Linda, James, and Jt took Ash out to a fancy Italian restaurant for dinner. She tried not to be depressed as she sat there with all these well-meaning people but she couldn’t focus on dinner, she thought only of Joey. It had been a whole year and not one word from him.
Her ordeal at camp had made her snap out of the mood she had been in. She had been so upset and heartbroken she had gone into a denial and had used both Jace and Jt without realizing her behavior had been out of anger. She really didn’t know much about what was going on in Joey’s life right now. Did he have a girlfriend? How bad had he taken his father’s death? Did he even still think about her? He had spent the last year with Katie; maybe they finally broke down and were dating each other? All these thoughts were driving her wild as she tried to eat her dinner.
Ash checked the answering machine first thing when she got back home from dinner; her sister had called to wish her happy birthday but no word from Joey. Ash went to bed early that night. She didn’t even change into her pajamas that night as she lay on her bed crying. She reached into her pocket and pulled out the tattered slip of paper and read it. She hoped the words written on it would cheer her up, but instead it made her cry worse.
School started day’s later still without a phone call from Joey. She realized that he had forgotten her completely. She deserved it and worse for all the trouble she had caused. As the school year began she sat in classes heartbroken all over again, this time she could only blame herself. She made up her mind right then that she loved Joey and always would, but if she mattered so little to him that he couldn’t even call her, she was done. She was going to try to find someone she could love as much as him. She didn’t know if that was possible but it was time to try. No more head games with boys, no more random fucking, just a real relationship with someone who loved her. She thought about Jt for a minute but realized that his love for her wasn’t real. He had fallen in love with her because, like most young boys, he fell for the first girl to give him any real attention. It would have to be someone else, someone new but she didn’t know if she could trust any guy again after the lighthouse party.
The one high point to the new life here was that Terra and Mandy both went to her new school, unfortunately so did Brandy. Ash had made as strong enemy in Brandy who took every opportunity to cut her down. It didn’t matter because whenever she was down she had her two new best friends there for her.
Mandy turned 15 right after the start of the school year and Ash and Terra had taken her out for her birthday. They went to the movies and hung around the mall looking at guys and joking about what they would do with them. It was a really fun night and Ash was really glad she had met them. From that day on the three girls ran everywhere together, from the mall after school, football games, and just hanging out in the park.
Just for the hell of it all three tried out for the cheer squad. Brandy tried out for cheer too just to despite the girls. Brandy thought that being on cheer squad would be a great place to get back at the girls if they all made the squad. This backfired on Brandy however when Mandy and Ash were accepted and Terra wasn’t. Ash and Mandy quickly quit because they didn’t want to cheer without Terra, Brandy tried to quit but her parents told her she had made a commitment and she had to go through with it. So like it or not Brandy was stuck cheering for the whole year.
Life took a turn for the interesting when Linda came to talk to Ash in late October; she sat Ash down on her bed and told her that James had asked them to move in with him and Jt. James still had no idea what had really happened between Ash and Jt, but he and Linda had been dating for six months now and the girls spent so much time at his apartment now that he thought it was a good idea.
Linda had told James she needed to talk to Ash about it before she could give him an answer; she told James it affected her too. What Linda was really worried about was what might still be going on with the kids, she hadn’t seen anything suspicious since Ash had come back from bible camp, but she still had a concern. Linda went home that night and asked Ash point blank if she was still fooling around with Jt.
Ash was shocked Linda had just come right out with it. Ash looked at her in surprise, she didn’t have anything to hide but for some reason she didn’t want to talk about her relationship to Jt.
“Look,” Linda started, “I get that you’ve been really good since you came back from camp, but I can’t move in with James if you kids are still having sex. This is just what I was talking about when I said that your affair could cause conflict with James and me.” Ash understood but she didn’t want the lecture right then.
“No,” Ash answered looking at her feet, “I haven’t wanted to be with anyone after………….” She broke off her sentence and her face tensed up. Linda’s face changed and she realized she had just picked at a nerve within Ash.
“I’m so sorry sweetie, I just had to ask,” Linda told her pulling her into a hug, “I didn’t mean to bring up something bad. You still don’t want to talk about it?”
“Ok, sorry,” Linda pulled away from the hug and sat next to her for a minute without saying anything, “So what do you think?”
“I think James is a great guy and we should do it. Jt and I are really just friends now. It will be ok.”
It was the beginning of November and with the double income of James and Linda they found that they could afford to rent a house. They found a nice place with 2 bedrooms and two baths and a full basement. Ash liked the house it felt more like a real home to her then the apartment had. They had talked about the room arrangements when they had come to look at this house, James and Lilly got the master bedroom upstairs, Ash got the other room upstairs and Jt moved into the basement. He seemed really happy to have what he called his own apartment down stairs.
Ash figured she knew why he liked being all the way down there, as she had talked to Joey a number of times about what boys were doing at Jt’s age. The basement was set up so that it was split into two parts, Jt had a living room type area just off the stairs where he could bring his friends and play video games and watch movies. They put a desk down in the front space so that he could study down stairs on his own as well. On the other half of the divider wall they had built was set up as a bedroom with his bed, dressers and end table. This arrangement gave him a lot of privacy to do whatever he wanted whenever he needed to.
Ash liked the house but she was tired of moving, it seemed to her ever since her parents had died all she did was move. This had been the fourth time in just over three years and she still didn’t know if she would return to Lilly’s once her injuries had healed. She loved Linda but she really wanted to go back home to her other sister and the life she had, had there.
It didn’t take long to settle into things at the new house, Ash had stayed true to her word and not crossed the line again with Jt. Their relationship toward each other wasn’t what you would call brother and sister but it wasn’t sexual either. They had truly bonded and become like best friends. Ash usually hung out after school with Terra and Mandy at the mall but as soon as she got home she would run down stairs to tell Jt anything new that had happened that day. They would sit and do their homework and play video games. In the first few weeks Linda would show up unexpectedly all the time to check on them, but by Christmas break she had begun to really trust them and leave them alone together a little more.
Everything was going great until a couple days before Christmas break. At dinner that night James told the kids that he and Linda were going out for a whole weekend that weekend and the kids would have to be on their own. Ash said that was no problem she had been on her own for weekends like that lots of times living with Lilly. Linda gave her a knowing look but she didn’t say anything. Linda knew that she and Joey had made use of those weekends but Ash didn’t plan on doing anything wrong this time.
Ash went to school the next day and talked to Terra about them being alone in the house this weekend, the first thing Terra said was PARTY. Ash told her no it was out of the question. As the day ended the ball had been set rolling and Ash had at least 25 to 30 kids coming over on Saturday night. Ash talked to Jt about it and he liked the idea of a party with girls, so he was in. Ash was all but shaking with fear at the idea of a party in her house; she still hadn’t gotten over her last party. But this time Terra and Jt would be close by and not let anything happen to her.
Linda and James left Friday night; Linda talked to Ash privately and told her that she trusted her alone with Jt, and not to let her down again. Ash hugged her sister and said she wouldn’t. That night was fun for the kids they ordered a pizza and sat down in the basement playing games and eating. They stayed up very late that night just enjoying being teenagers and having fun.
Ash awoke to Jt kissing her the next morning; she had passed out on his couch sometime during the late night. She was lying in the bend in the couch at an angle, not quite on her back but not on her side. Jt was lying partly on his side and partly on her and he was kissing her desperately as his cock was hard poking her bare leg as it had come out the leg of his shorts.
“Stop JT!” Ash said pushing him away, “We can’t do this, and I promised Linda I wouldn’t.”
“But….. It’s been so long,” he whined looking her right in the eyes, “I’ve tried to be good too, but…………. since we moved in here……”
“I know but I told you what happened the last time I……….. I……… you know,” she said shaking a little.
“I know,” he said in a truly sorrowful tone, “But I need to so bad, PLLLLEEESSSEE.” He was begging now and Ash felt bad. She had started this with him and taken it away, she could feel his need seeping against her leg. She sat in silence holding him back having a moral debate inside her head. She felt like if she didn’t do this for him he would hate her, but she felt like if she did she would feel dirty and be betraying her promise.
“I like you Jt, you know that but I don’t know……….” She trailed off in her sentence as he began to kiss her neck. It felt really good she had trained him well over the summer on how to hit her buttons. She started breathing hard as he gently bit the back of her neck. That was her melting point, she regretted teaching him that trick now, “Wait, WAIT!” she cried pushing him back again.
“I……… need you………. So much………you’re so hot……….” He said between kisses attacking her neck again. She knew she was lost now. She had tried twice to stop this, but it was Jt and she liked him despite trying so hard not to. She pulled his shirt off and began kissing his shoulder, and then their mouths met again kissing deeply. She reached down to his shorts and began to stroke his half exposed member.
Jt was still young and it had been almost six months, Ash expected him to go off on her right away then she might be able to end this but apparently his time in the basement alone had been working on lasting longer. Ash stroked as hard as she could with him sticking out of his shorts leg but he didn’t pop.
Jt slid her shirt up her body reviling her bare chest as she hadn’t been wearing a bra last night. His lips found her breasts and he began to suck hard on her nipple. His need for her was deep as he sucked her, he was both soft and aggressive in his approach to her now, and it was driving her crazy.
Ash pushed his shorts off his ass down to his knees, he wasn’t wearing underwear and she wondered if he had planned this last night. She gripped him better with his shorts down and stroked him unrestrained, he was moaning deeply as he sucked her other nipple. It was only minutes later his whole body shook and gobs of cum shot out of him covering her legs, her shorts and the couch. He wouldn’t stop Cuming, it was like he had saved it all since they had last had sex as he coated her shorts.
He finally relaxed kissing her mouth again when he had regained control. Ash felt sticky, dirty and wet as he kissed her, she wanted to stop now her mind flashed back to lying helpless at the light tower with cum coating her body, and she began to have a slight panic attack. She gently pushed him away from her and scooted herself into a sitting position pulling her sticky legs up to her chest.
“Ok, I think that’s more than enough,” Ash told him shaky, “I did promise Linda.”
“But you didn’t…………..You know………..Did you?” he asked the shyness coming back again.
“No I didn’t cum, it’s ok, do YOU feel better now?” She asked trying to smile.
“Ummm………..yeah, uh………. I’m sorry I couldn’t stop…………I woke up with……..and you were there in those shorts……….. I couldn’t stop.” Ash almost giggled at his stuttering apology.
“It’s ok, we just shouldn’t have, we just need to be more careful in the future,” she told him quietly. She was as nice about the whole thing as she could be; he didn’t know that she had such a hang up about sex now. She got up and left the basement room to go take a shower and put her clothes in the washer, the last thing she would need is for Linda to come home and find her cum stained shorts in the laundry.
Ash’s fears started building that morning and didn’t get any better by the time Terra had shown up, she was really worried about having a party at the house not just because of her own hang ups but because she thought it was betraying Linda’s trust again. Jt seemed excited all day and when Terra had shown up and he met her for the first time he seemed to be unable to not look at her.
Ash actually felt a small twinge of jealousy at the way he looked at Terra but she put it away. If he liked her it would be fine, and it would clear up things like this morning if he fixated on someone else. They escaped from him long enough for Ash to change, she decided on her favorite black skirt and a really pretty hot pink button up long sleeve shirt. Terra was there for about an hour with Jt following them around before anyone else showed up. When people started coming they didn’t stop, before Ash could think there were a houseful of kids filling every room.
Mandy had to sneak out of her house to come, so she was late. Ash thought it was funny when Mandy had made it because she was dressed just like Ash and Terra. It was almost like the three of them had planned it. All three looked hot in their skirts and Jt was still following Terra around when Mandy arrived and the girls joked about how cute it was. Terra told Ash if she didn’t hook up at the party she might make Jt’s dream come true and fuck him by the end of the night. Mandy and Ash laughed because they knew Terra wasn’t actually joking.
The party was in full gear and Ash had begun to worry about cops being called and having the whole thing broken up, sadly she half wished that would happen. She had lost track of both Terra and Many as she had been trying to figure out who had brought all the alcohol, she didn’t want the drinking in the house. This set off a chain of events where she began dumping out any alcohol she could and a number of people had gotten really mad and everyone finally left.
Someone had suggested that they move the party to some other place and the kids took the remaining alcohol and they all left. Ash was standing in the kitchen by herself looking at the mess in the house. She was a little pissed of that her friends had left her to deal with it on her own. She figured to hell with that she would go down and get Jt and make him help her clean up. He had been so keen on the idea of the party least he could do was help her now.
She walked down the stairs to the basement room and paused as she could hear moaning from behind the divider wall, she turned to leave thinking he was taking care of himself, when she heard a distinct girl moan. Ash was irritated had Terra really gone to him, she didn’t like the idea of Jt getting with Terra; she was a little too wild for a boy like him. She wasn’t jealous but she thought she should put a stop to it before Terra accidently broke his heart worse than she had last summer.
Ash walked to the divider and looked in, Jt had the lamp on next to his bed but a red shirt had been thrown over it giving off a low red glow to his room. Ash almost gasped as she looked up to see who was with him. Mandy was naked between his legs her head down sucking his cock deep. Ash’s brain clicked into a memory of Mandy’s tongue on her pussy and how good she had licked her out last summer. She knew that Mandy could use her mouth and by the look on Jt’s face he was finding that out too. Ash could feel herself getting wet watching them, having been with both of them. She slowly moved backwards and left the basement, her hand in her panties rubbing herself as she climbed the stairs.
She ran up the second set of stairs to her room, she needed to take care of her dripping pussy. Jt had worked her up so much that morning she had never completely came back down, and now seeing them together she was halfway there already. She burst through her door hand still rubbing her clit to find someone in her bed. She pulled her hand back reluctantly and sat down next to Terra who was lying in the middle of her bed.
Terra sat up when Ash sat down, she could smell the sex radiating from Ash right then. Terra was drunk and as she sat up her and Ash locked eyes, neither said a word to each other they just sat staring into one another. Then they were kissing, both girls’ tongues exploring each other’s mouth, Ash didn’t know what had come over her but she couldn’t stop kissing Terra. Ash was confused as they kissed because she knew that Mandy was bi-sexual and she herself had played around a couple times but she had never heard Terra mention that she was into that at all. But for someone who never mentioned she was into girls Terra really knew how to touch her just right, her hands were in just the right places and Terra’s mouth was now on her neck.
Ash had been half way there when she walked into the room and this was getting close to pushing her over the edge. She had never once thought of having sex with her best friend but here and now it seemed so right for them to be like this. Ash’s need was flowing between her legs as they leaned back on the bed; Terra was now unbuttoning her shirt and ripping it as she did so. As soon as her shirt was open Terra’s lips were on her chest, Ash thought she should put a stop to this in case Terra was too drunk, she didn’t want to lose her best friend because of a drunken mistake.
“Terra, are you sure?” Ash moaned out as Terra reached behind her and unhooked her bra, “You’ve been drinking…………..OH GOD DON’T STOP.” Terra in one motion had sucked Ash’s nipple in her mouth and found her clit with her hand.
“I’m not ……….. As drunk as……… I’m OOOOH GOD,” Terra started as Ash’s hand found Terra’s pussy. Their hands slid into each other’s panties and began to rub fast, kissing each other on the mouth again.
After several minutes the girls broke apart, Ash had been very close to her orgasm and moaned as Terra broke away. Terra pulled off her shirt quickly and threw it on the floor then she scooted up to pull off her skirt, panties and bra. Ash followed her lead removing her skirt and panties. It had been years since Ash had sat completely naked with a girl breathing hard ready to experiment. Not a word was spoken as they sat naked; they looked at each other again for a long moment before grabbing one another and falling into more kissing.
Ash hadn’t wanted to be with a guy since her ordeal at the lighthouse but she hadn’t ever considered that being with a girl would be the answer to her sexual hesitance. Their fingers found their way back to each other’s pussies again and both girls moaned into each other as they began to clit play. Terra rolled Ash onto her back and started giving her slow supple kisses down her body.
Ash could feel her orgasm building again as Terra moved down to her stomach then on to her clit. Terra really knew what she was doing as she took Ash’s clit into her mouth and sucked it in a way she had never felt before. Terra treated her clit almost as if she were trying to suck a cock, then her tongue snaked its way into her pussy, lapping deep and quickly. That finally pushed Ash over the edge, she sprayed Terra’s face as she came harder then she had in over a year.
Terra didn’t stop, she licked within her harder before Ash had a chance to come down from her orgasm, and within moments she was leaking more juices on the her best friends face. This only caused Terra to push harder again, Ash didn’t know where she was finding this energy Terra used to eat her so thoroughly but it was the most incredible licking she had ever had. She hated to admit it but Terra was so much better at eating her out then even Joey had been and he had been so good when he had done it for her. When Ash’s second orgasm hit Terra reached around behind Ash’s back grabbing her ass and lifting it off the bed, pulling her pussy deeper into her mouth.
Ash lost any control she had left at that moment, she was crying out now and shuddering, she hadn’t cried out like that for so long but she had never been through this before. Terra pulled her tongue back and replaced it with her fingers as she began to attack her clit again, sucking hard. Ash hit her third orgasm as more cum shot from her then ever had before. Terra’s face was drenched now and it was dripping off her.
Ash’s breathing was heavy and she was going in and out of consciousness as Terra continued her assault on her aching pussy. It was too much, too intense to crazy that this was even happening, she couldn’t believe she was here in this moment, it was too good to be real as she felt orgasm number four hitting her hard her body fell back to the bed.
“Ash? Oh my God! Ash?” She cried out in a panicky voice, “Hey girl are you ok?” Ash woke up staring into the eyes of a scared looking Terra.
“What’s wrong?” Ash asked her voice weak.
“I thought something happened to you,” Terra started, “You went limp and didn’t respond, I didn’t know what happened.” Ash giggled at her for a second.
“I passed out; it used to happen to me when I was younger. Only one other person ever ate me so good as to make me pass out,” Ash explained to her.
“I’ve never heard of a girl that did that, I was so scared when you stopped moving,” Terra said quietly and Ash kissed her feeling weak she wanted to continue, she wanted to give back to her friend what Terra had just done for her, but her body had taken all it could and she needed to calm down, rest and recharge.
Ash could feel Terra’s heart beating really hard as she laid her body against her own. They kissed as they both calmed down and slowly drifted off to sleep. Ash woke about an hour later, she was still tired but she was really cold, she gently slipped out from under Terra and pulled a blanket out of the closet. They had fallen asleep on top of the bed and she didn’t want to move Terra to pull back the blankets. She covered themselves under the blanket and fell back to sleep.
Ash woke for the second morning in a row to someone kissing her. It was still mostly dark outside leaving very low light in her room. It was Terra kissing her today, focusing on Ash’s neck instead of her lips. Ash was tingling already as Terra continued her gentle almost loving touching movements of her hands and lips. Ash was truly surprised by this degree of affection, in the few months Ash had known Terra all she had seen was a girl who moved from one guy to another, never showing any hint she cared about any of them.
Terra had become her crazy, outrageous, crude and kind of wild friend. Ash really liked being here with her now, being on the other end of Terra’s soft side. She felt special that her friend was like this with her. Joey had once said that she and Sara had shared a special bond, and she had said the same thing to Mandy last summer, but both hadn’t felt like this. This was so much more than just a friendship bond. Ash realized she had real feelings for Terra, she wouldn’t say she was in love with her but she understood in that moment she had actually feelings for her.
“I wish I could wake up that way every day,” Ash said softly.
“How are you feeling this morning?” Terra asked kissing her shoulder lightly.
“Really good right now,” she said and gave Terra a smile.
“You’re not weirded out?” Terra asked hesitantly.
“I was surprised last night, but it didn’t weird me out,” Ash paused she had something else she wanted to say but was really nervous, “In fact………….. It felt right, I mean……. I mean………… I like you…… a little…….. That way.” She bit her lip afraid of how Terra would react. Ash only now realized how much courage it had taken Jt to say this to her last summer.
Ash had never before considered having a girlfriend, yet right now, lying in bed naked with her best friend she was considering. She had a crush on Jace but that hadn’t been more than a passing interest. She liked Jt a lot, but she had never been in love with him. Right now as Terra paused Ash’s heart beat fast as she talked to the first person she had really fell for since Joey.
“Can I be honest with you?” Terra asked after a long time, “I…… don’t want you to hate me.” Ash’s heart felt heavy as she nodded to her friend, “I like to fuck guys, you know that, but I’ve only ever had a couple short term boyfriends, and I’ve never dated a girl.”
“Ok,” Ash said not sure where this was going, “But that couldn’t have been the first time you ever did that, you were incredible.”
“Thank you,” Terra said a little embarrassed, “I want to tell you everything but………… I’m scared………… I don’t want you to never talk to me again.”
“I wouldn’t, I………… I’ve been through a lot too,” Ash explained. Terra turned away from her. Ash leaned in and kissed her neck, putting her arms around her friend. Ash could tell what ever Terra was hiding had been building up in her for a long time, needing someone she could trust to get it out.
Terra finally started speaking after a few minutes of Ash holding her, as she spoke Ash was again surprised at the change in her demeanor. This morning she was so soft in touch and words, as she told Ash that her mom and dad had broken up when she was ten and she had stayed with her mom and 15 year old sister, Megan. Ash had known that already but she let Terra start at the beginning.
It all started about the time that Terra was 12, she had just come home from playing at the park and her mom was at work. She was heading to her room when she thought she would go talk with her sister. She ended up walking in on Megan and best friend, Cammy, in bed licking each other. The girls were laying on her sisters bed faces buried in each other, Terra had never considered that girls would get together like that before and she found herself horrified and turned on by watching. Megan saw her standing at the door and Cammy jumped off the bed and grabbed Terra by the wrists and pulled her into the room sitting her on the bed. Terra was scared but she asked the girls what they were doing and the girls explained that when girls didn’t have a boyfriend they could do what they were doing to help each other out.
Terra told them she wasn’t sure she understood and was shocked when Cammy asked her if she had ever touched herself down there. Terra told her that she had never touched herself because it was wrong. Megan and Cammy laughed at her and she ran from the room crying. Megan came to her room a little while later to talk to her.
Megan asked her to not say anything about what she had seen to their mom because she could get in trouble. Terra asked her if she wasn’t doing anything wrong why she would be in trouble. Megan explained to her that Cammy really liked boys but she also liked to play around with her too but Megan just liked girls. Terra was confused again and asked how a girl could like another girl? Terra had seen pictures of boys naked and she was excited for the day she could feel a boy’s thing touching inside her, she told this to Megan and asked how girls could have sex without a boy’s thing.
Megan smiled sweetly at her and told her she didn’t understand because she hadn’t ever played with herself. She told Terra that once she had gotten herself off a few times she would understand how more than a cock could make a girl feel good. Terra was shocked by the words her sister was using but she had made her curious. Megan left after Terra agreed not to tell on her.
During the course of her next couple weeks Terra began trying to understand what her sister had been talking about. She discovered after the first time she rubbed the nub above her opening that it felt good and she began to see what Megan was talking about. She spent most of her spare time alone in her room over the next couple months. She couldn’t stop touching herself after she had discovered it, she needed it all the time, and she wanted more.
She had just turned 13 when she decided she couldn’t continue alone anymore. She was asked near the end of the school year to a school dance by a boy who was a couple years older. She was excited to go and she accepted right on the spot she thought if the night turned out right this would be just what she had been hoping for.
The night of the dance had been really fun and she had enjoyed getting dressed up in pretty clothes and having him hold her all night. As he walked her home they stopped at the park and sat down on a pick nick table. Almost instantly he kissed her, it was ruff and he thrust his tongue in her mouth right away.
They lost track of where they were and the time as they were kissing. The whole thing was a little weird and awkward but Terra was enjoying the closeness she was having with this boy. She put her hand on his leg trying to steady herself as he leaned her back slightly. She could feel him under his jeans, hard and pushing against her hand. It made her feel special to know that she had turned on this boy so much.
Only a few moments after she had placed her hand on his leg he began to push against it and she pushed back making him kiss her like crazy. It wasn’t long after that he unzipped his pants and placed her hand back down on his now open jeans. Terra felt tingly between her legs as this was finally going to happen. She reached in and grabbed his hard tool not removing it from his pants but gripping it and moving her hand as much as she could inside his jeans.
They had only been doing this for a few minutes as his breathing was getting really labored, Terra knew he was probably going to orgasm soon. It was then someone grabbed her from the back and pulled her off the table. Terra spun around to see Megan standing there angry. Megan grabbed her by the shirt collar and started to drag her towards home, the boy never said a word to them, he just zipped up his pants with an embarrassed look on his face and ran the other way.
As it turned out something had come up and Terra’s mom had left that night for a family issue and left Megan at home alone waiting for Terra to come home. Megan had begun to worry when Terra was more than a half an hour late and had gone out to walk the ten minute walk that it took to get to the school. She had been more than angry to find Terra sitting there giving a hand job. Terra cried and told her sister everything from touching herself to needing more.
When Terra had explained herself she was surprised to see that Megan wasn’t mad anymore, she told her little sister that she understood and Terra felt better. Megan told her to go to bed and they could talk more if she needed to later. Terra went to her room stripped off her pants and her nice shirt and pulled on an old t-shirt of her dad’s that she slept in. She was still so turned on from playing with the boy and her fingers found her soft lower lips and began to explore.
Terra was into herself rubbing furiously when her door opened her head shot sideways to see her sister walking to her bed. Terra pulled the blanket over herself as Megan sat on the bed next to her. Terra’s breathing was ragged and her face red, there was no hiding what she had been doing. She lay there mind spinning fast trying to come up with something to say, the silence was killing Terra from embarrassment. It was Megan who broke the awkwardness by making this even weirder. Megan leaned in and kissed Terra running her hand up her thigh before Terra could stop her.
Terra moaned out loud as Megan’s hand found her clit. Terra was horrified and by what was happing to her but it felt so good she couldn’t tell her sister to stop it was too amazing having someone else rub her. Megan reached over and pulled Terra’s panties off then slid down the bed. Terra cried out as her sister’s tongue slid insider her, as Megan continued rubbing her clit.
Terra’s body arched as waves of pleasure spiked through her, she was moaning non-stop calling out Megan’s name. Her sister pushed in deep and Terra’s whole body shuddered but her sister didn’t stop. Minutes later her body thrashed in pleasure and Terra’s heart was beating so fast she thought she would die. After her second release her sister shifted her fingers inside her and began to suck her clit, the third orgasm hit almost instantly as this was the most pleasure she had ever felt. Her body arched deep then she fell to the bed exhausted.
Megan moved back up and began to kiss Terra again, slowly and lovingly. Terra pulled away from Megan her mind was returning back to normal and she was becoming horrified again about what had just happened. It took Terra minutes to finally talk to her sister about what was bothering her.
The girls talked and Megan had said that she didn’t want to see Terra give into her urges this young and get pregnant. Megan said that she had been upset seeing her sister giving the hand job to the boy she felt she was too young to be at that stage yet. Megan said she had gone through something similar at her age and had almost become pregnant before deciding she liked girls. She thought if she helped her out Terra might be able to wait for sex until she was older. Terra couldn’t disagree that it had helped a lot but she felt weird about it. Megan said it was ok if she felt weird but if she changed her mind or needed her help again then just to ask.
It took about six weeks before Terra couldn’t stand it anymore, she could make herself feel good on her own but she couldn’t get herself off all the way, and nowhere near like what Megan had done for her. She timidly went into her sister’s room the first night that their mom wasn’t home and asked her for help again. Megan said she would be happy to help her.
Over the next year the girls would fool around when they got the chance and would often have all night when their mom was gone. Terra was trained by her sister and had become just as good at giving pleasure as her sister. She loved the bond with her sister they would give each other pleasure then lay together all night holding each other. It was so special to Terra and as much as she was frightened by the idea she was falling in love with Megan.
Not long after Terra turned 14 Megan moved out, leaving Terra home alone all the time with their mom as flakey as she was. Cammy was going away to college out of state and Megan told everyone she was going with her so they could roommate. Terra knew the real reason that they had moved in with each other, and it pissed her off. Megan had chosen Cammy over her, and it upset her that she could just walk away after what they had been through.
That had been the cause of Terra’s wild phase; she began running around with boys all the time after her sister had moved out. She started smoking, drinking and having sex looking for some way to stop the pain of loss her sister caused her. From that point until now it had been one party after another and one hook up to the next. Her mother was so out of it anymore and so flaky that she never noticed if Terra was home or if she had boys with her in her room, giving her pretty much the freedom to do whatever she wanted. The catch to all of that was that her mom still made her go to camp every year, Terra told Ash she only went to camp to feed her secret desire to be with a girl sometimes. Terra would make sure to hook up with one at the deflowering ceremony.
When Terra had finally finished explaining light had begun to come through the window and day was starting. Ash held her friend but Terra still couldn’t look at her, she kept her head turned away.
“I’ll understand if you don’t want to talk to me again. I mean what kind of person does THAT with her sister?” Ash tried to hold back the smile growing in her face, it was way more common than Terra realized.
“I don’t think any less of you,” she said sweetly. Terra turned to her and the girls kissed sweetly for a few moments.
“You still like me?” Terra asked her voice trembling, “I’ve been so scared to tell anyone for so long.”
“I still like you,” Ash told her, “I think I would be a hypocrite if I held it against you.” Ash went on to tell her the story of what she had done to get Joey and Katie together so she could have him herself. Ash hoped that Terra wouldn’t think her the bad person now.
When Ash was done telling her story Terra kissed her this time. It felt nice to both girls to have someone so accepting of each other. Now having been completely honest with each other they kissed again slow and caring. Their hands slowly finding the other’s breasts they lay down on the bed and their kissing became more passionate. It wasn’t long before Terra’s hand was rubbing Ash’s clit again, it felt really good but Ash suddenly tensed up.
“I want to do this with you, I REALY do, but I’ve only ever tried licking once a long time ago,” Ash said embarrassed, “I’m nervous that I…………….”
“Don’t worry,” Terra stopped her, “I’ll teach you.”
An hour later the girls both lay on their backs, breathing returning to normal, hearts beating madly and holding hands.
“Wow,” Terra breathed out, “You learn quickly.”
“So what now?”
“You’re ready for more,” Terra asked astonished.
“No, not for a while after that,” Ash giggled, “I meant for us, what now?”
“I don’t know.”
They lay in bed until about 9:00 when Ash said she had to pee and got up put on her panties and a t-shirt and left. She had a lot of conflicting emotions on her mind and needed a minute alone. After using the bathroom she went down stairs for a couple of sodas. The house was a mess from the party and she would have to do a lot of work before Linda and James came home tonight but she had a little time now. She walked up stairs with the cans of soda preparing herself for the conversation that needed to come now.
It wasn’t that Ash was into girls in a lesbian or bi-sexual standpoint. When her and Sara had fooled around it had been out of curiosity on both their parts. They had touched and licked each other but not really been into it. Ash had known the first time she did something with Joey she loved boys and LOVED him specifically. Last summer at the orgy she had let a girl, who happened to turn out to be Mandy, lick her pussy but that had been in the moment at an orgy it had nothing to do with being into girls.
Last night she had been so horny before Terra kissed her and her will was down, it had felt good and she hadn’t wanted to stop. But with Terra things were different, she really liked her best friend, she had real feelings for her, but she knew she wasn’t in love. She hated herself because she was going to hurt someone else she cared for again.
Ash paused at the top of the stairs leaning her head against the door frame; she didn’t want to hurt Terra, for the first time in her life Ash had made love to someone without games, or manipulation or for just the fun of it. This time had been for real and she still had to tell the person that she wasn’t in love and would have to hurt her.
“We need to talk,” Terra said to her as she entered the room. Ash handed her the soda and sat on the bed next to her.
“Yeah, I think we do,” she said softly.
“Look, I don’t want you to get the wrong idea but what happened last night………….. It meant a lot to me but…………” Terra paused biting her lip.
“It doesn’t mean were a couple,” Ash finished for her.
“Yeah,” Terra said breathing out a sigh, “I just…… I don’t know, it’s so different with girls.”
“I would say so,” Ash exclaimed, “But I……. kind of feel the same way.”
They talked about what everything meant for the next hour. Terra said that as much as she liked Ash she wasn’t looking for a girlfriend she liked boys way too much to switch sides permanently. Ash agreed that was what she had been thinking too, both girls feeling a lot better for being honest. They decided for now they would just be friends, friends that sometimes made love which both girls seemed happy with.
Ash was just happy that she hadn’t hurt her friend. It felt really good to hold someone and be honest with them without one person being more in love with the other and no games. They held each other and kissed until about lunch time when Ash said that she was hungry and had to get started on cleaning the house in case her sister and James came home early.
Ash pulled on a pair of jeans, Terra got dressed and they both walked downstairs. To Ash’s surprise Jt and Mandy had cleaned up most of the house in the time since she had come down for soda.
“Your still here Mandy?” Ash asked thinking her parents would be going nuts if they knew she was missing this morning.
“No, I went home early this morning and I came back to help you guys clean about an hour and a half ago,” she looked over at Jt and blushed, “Are you two just getting up?” Mandy gave them a puzzled look.
“Yeah,” Terra said nonchalantly, “I had a late night and Ash let me crash in her room.”
“Oh,” Mandy responded with a sly smile but she didn’t question anything.
The four of them finished cleaning the house and Terra and Ash drove all the trash bags down the street and threw them into a dumpster at an apartment building. They didn’t want Linda to come home and find the party trash.
After the house was back in order Ash and Terra sat on the couch in the living room and put on a movie, while Mandy grabbed Jt’s hand and they went down to his room all afternoon. Terra looked puzzled when they left and asked Ash what that was all about and Ash told her what she had walked in on last night. Both girls thought it was really cute and they liked the idea of them being together it was a good match.
It was late in the day when Ash heard James’ car pull up out front, she stomped on the floor loudly to warn Jt, and moments later he and Mandy came running up the stairs all flushed and red still pulling on their shirts. It was good that James and Linda had taken a long time to get the bags out of the car or Jt and Mandy would’ve been caught.
Linda came in that night and all four were sitting on the couch trying not to look guilty as Linda checked the house over completely. The girls stayed for dinner as Ash cooked spaghetti for everyone, Linda had started to cook but Ash pushed her away and said that after she had a trip she shouldn’t have to cook. Linda stayed in the kitchen and the girls talked as she cooked, Linda had a suspicious look on her face the whole time.
The girls went home after dinner and Jt went back to his room, James went to the living room and watched TV as Linda and Ash cleaned up the kitchen. Linda told Ash she could smell the cleaning products when she came in the door tonight but as the house was left standing and their didn’t seem to be any trouble caused she was going to let Ash and Jt get away with whatever they had done. Ash tried not to smile and just simply told Linda she had no idea what Linda could possibly be talking about. The girls just smiled at each other.
The day after Christmas Ash and Jt were alone in the house and trying to get all their chores done before Mandy and Terra came over that day.
“Um…… Ash…..” Jt said softy. Ash still thought it was so cute that he was nervous around her, even after having sex with her and her friend he still had a hard time talking to her.
“What sweetie?” Ash asked patting him on the shoulder.
“Um I just wanted…….. To thank you for……. You know…….. Helping me….. Talk to girls and stuff.”
“You’re welcome sweetheart,” she said amused, “And pretty soon you’ll master it,” she joked.
“Ummm yeah,” he said turning red but realizing she had just been joking, “I just……… you know I’ll………… I still……..”
“Don’t worry I will always love you too. You know what I mean.”
“Umm Yeah,” he said then paused, “You’re not mad that I………….. Like Mandy now?”
“No sweetie, I’m really happy for you,” Ash said honestly and kissed his cheek.
That was pretty much all that was ever said about him dating her friend as Ash was happy that he found someone who liked him as much as he liked her. The hurt she had felt for using him loosened up a little, yes she had done something to him but in the end it had helped him end some fears of women, and that led to him having his first real girlfriend. She could live with herself again concerning Jt.
Not long after their talk Mandy arrived and she and Jt went straight to his room. Terra arrived at lunch time and they hung out in the living room watching movies for a couple hours. They hadn’t had another event like the night of the party, they had talked about it and as much as they had loved giving each other pleasure they were still on the lookout for boyfriends. They had made the decision that on occasion it would be ok to fool around if they wanted to but it seemed they were just as content to be around each other. The four of them spent the rest of the vacation that way, Jt and Mandy in his room every day and Terra and Ash would hang around the house watching movies or spend the day at the mall.
The school year picked up again and things fell back into their normal routine with only one change, Jt now went everywhere with the three girls. This gave him a huge reputation at school because he was hanging around with the cutest girls in school.
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