I start to lust for my mom, and it eventually leads from one this to another.
Before you start reading this I would just like to point out that this will probably be offensive, and disgust a lot of people. If the thought of incest bothers you then I would advise that you do not read any further. Now that I got the warning out of the way I'm going the say that the only reason why I am writing this is because, I guess I am very confused about this whole situation. I feel like I should feel bad about it, however I don't. Everything that I am about to tell you is 100% true. Whether you believe it or not, I guess that is completely up to you, and I don't blame you if you choose not to believe me. Now, I'm not writing this because I need help, I'm just writing this to get it down on paper basically. I feel like I need to vent to somebody, and I kind of can't bring myself to talk about this sort of thing to somebody in person. So here I am writing about it.
I guess before I get into the story I should give you a little bit of background so you know a little bit about me. Well, my name is Brendan, and I'm a senior in high school. I'm 18 years old and these past five years have been pretty rough for my mother and me. My mother's name is Emily and she has been taking care of me by herself the past five years because my father is.. well let's just say he's gone. I'm choosing not to tell you why he is gone because, I guess I'm scared to give out too much information about myself. I would just much rather prefer if people don't really know who I am. Also, for obvious reasons I'm going to leave out last names, and filling in fake ones just doesn't seem right to me. So I'm sorry if I leave out details that you would like to know, but I'm not even going to tell you what color my hair is. If you really want to, use your imagination, fill in the blanks for yourself. Well anyway, when I just turned 14 my dad was suddenly gone from my life and my mother has been taking care of me by herself since then. It has just been us two in the house, and we have been able to get by just fine financially. My dad made quite a bit of money, so that definitely helped. In school I get pretty good grades, at first my grades dropped a lot because of my dad. But eventually I learned that bitching about things aren't to get you anywhere. So my grades eventually started to turn around by about 10th grade. I started to get mostly B's and A's in the subjects that I liked in particular. One of them including English.
My mom definitely took my dad's absence pretty hard. There were multiple times when I would find her crying somewhere in the house, and of course she would tell me everything was fine. I would hear her crying in her room late at night sometimes when I would wake up to go to the bathroom. I mean, I cried about it sometimes but eventually these things stopped. It is what it is. Crying about things won't make anything any better. Well, my mom proceeded to work and I continued to go to school. In school I became very quiet and didn't really reach out much but now I have a group of friends that I am close with. They really helped a lot, I didn't talk to them much about my dad but just being able to get out and get my mind off things really helped. Eventually things just got a lot better, I stopped being so depressed and I my grades improved. I got involved in school, I played a sport in the fall and I was involved in a club. I was just a lot happier, and it helped a lot that my mom wasn't as depressed either. It always made me feel better knowing that she was starting to feel better too. Okay, well I guess it is about time to actually get into the story.
I would like to say again, trust me I DO NOT need help. So don't try and figure out who I am. However, hearing what people think about this doesn't seem like it is that bad of an idea. I will make and email address or something so people can send me emails if they really want to talk to me about something. But DO NOT even bother trying to talk to me in person, asking me for my phone number, or even anyone that I mention in this for their phone number. I simply will not give them to you, so don't even try, you're just wasting your time. I will put a pseudo email at the end if you really want to contact me.
Okay, sorry for taking so long to get to this, but I felt like all that stuff was necessary. So,I believe it all started that day I got caught. As you may already know, sending nude pictures amongst teens is pretty common. I know I should have never done it, but I wasn't thinking. It isn't that much of a big deal now because I am 18 but still, it doesn't change the fact that I was sending them to an under age girl. I realize that we could have gotten in a lot of trouble but we trusted each other and we didn't get caught by the cops or anything, and I'm thankful that we didn't. We did get caught by my mom though. She wasn't too happy about it, but actually I thought she would be a lot more “disappointed in me”. That is what she always says, she's almost never mad at me. Just “disappointed”. Which in my opinion was always worse. It didn't bother me too much when I made my mom mad, but if she was disappointed then I felt a lot worse.
After school one day, (I believe it was a Tuesday actually) I walked into my house and I was extremely tired. I stayed up really late, sending pictures back and forth with my girlfriend and among a lot of them were pictures of her and me naked. It was a fun night, even thought I only got like three hours of sleep it was worth it. It was one of the best masturbation sessions I have had. So, when I got home I plopped my bag and all my stuff including my phone, on the kitchen counter. I went straight to the livingroom to pass out on the couch for a nice nap until dinner time. I was then abruptly woken up by my mom.
“Brendan, hey.. Brendan wake up,” she said as she shook my shoulder. I just ignored her. “Brendan get your lazy ass up now!” That jumped me up, I could tell right away that she was mad about something.
“What?” I shot her a mixed look of confusion and annoyance.
She held up my phone, as she was towering over me. “I was looking through your phone and-”
“YOU WERE LOOKING THROUGH MY PHONE!!” I yelled, jumped up and snatched it from her hand in about a second. She didn't take to me yelling very lightly.
“Excuse me? First of all, I'm the one that pays for your phone, I can just as easily look up what you are doing on your phone on the computer if I really wanted two. And second, don't try to turn this around and change the subject. You know what you did, why are those pictures on your phone?”
I didn't know what to say, and I stuttered, “Uhh, I.. I don't.”
“You know damn well what I'm talking about! Why are they on your phone??” Her voice was raising pretty loud now.
“Mom, I'm sorry. I don't know why.. I just did.”
She let out a long sigh and put her fingers to her forehead. “Look, I know that you are technically an adult now, but she is underage.”
“I guess, I didn't really think about that.”
“Yeah, clearly! You're lucky I'm not going to tell her parents. You could get into a lot of trouble because of this if you got caught by the wrong people.”
“I know mom, I'm sorry..”
“I know you are still young and that it is tough to control those feelings but please be smart.”
“Okay.. I won't do it again. I'm sorry it made you so mad.”
“I'm not mad, I'm just-”
“Just be smart okay? Don't let me find anything stupid like that ever again.”
“I won't do it again. But really mom, can you please not look through my phone. I mean I don't usually have stuff like that on there. But I just feel like.. I don't know. It's kind of an invasion of my privacy I guess.”
“Yeah I know.. I didn't mean to look through your phone like that. I was just curious.”
“Your phone, everyone is getting the iPhone now. I was just curious about it. I wanted to check it out a little.”
“So why don't you just go get one yourself?”
“I don't know, I guess that it's just too much stuff. I don't need all that. But anways, Just be smart okay?”
“Yeah, I will. I'm sorry you saw.. uhh.. that.” I didn't really think about it until now, but my mom saw me naked. Not only naked, but she saw me naked with a freaking hard on, masturbating. I could feel my face getting hot.
“It didn't really bother me, I mean I've seen you naked before. Like I said I'm just disappointed.”
“You haven't seen my naked in a long time! Never like that either. It's just weird I guess.” I started to scratch my face to try and hide that I was blushing.
“Why is it weird?”
“I don't know it just is.”
“Okay, okay. Well, dinner is ready come sit at the table.”
It was a really awkward dinner, we didn't really talk much. She asked about school and I just said the usual. I ate as fast as I could because I was too embarrassed to sit there with my mom. I was basically wolfing down giant bites in seconds. After like maybe five minutes at most, I was done eating and I rushed up to my room. I then finished my dinner and texted my girlfriend Allison. I told her about what happened and she wasn't too happy with me either. However, she was grateful that my mom wasn't going to tell her parents at least. Still, it is pretty embarrassing. We continued to just talk about stuff, and at the same time I did my homework. I then just played some video games, you know just some regular stuff until I went to bed.
A few days passed by until anything else happened, but this is where it starts to get really weird. If incest bothers you at all, and for some reason you are still reading this. This is my last warning. Stop reading this now because from this point on you may get offended.
After getting caught with the nude pictures on my phone, things finally started to get back to normal with my mom after a day or so. It wasn't awkward around her anymore, and I was able to sit at the table with her again without feeling so embarrassed. The weekend came and after school I had Allison come over, even though she really didn't want to because she was embarrassed also. We could go over to her house, but her house is a war zone. We never have privacy there, because she is the oldest of multiple siblings, plus her parents are always checking on us to make sure we aren't having sex or anything. Haha, it still never stopped us. We were always just “cuddling” under the blanket and watching a movie in her room.
One time though we almost got caught. One of her little brothers came in her room one day and decided to annoy us, right in the middle of us having sex. Well, it was more like the end I guess. But anyways, literally right when I was cumming, her brother came flying in the room and starting shooting us with a Nerf gun. It was a weird experience. I was wearing a condom of course, but I was cumming inside of my girlfriend and getting shot by her brother with a Nerf gun as the same time. The darts were pelting against my back and the back of my head, and I just kind of ignored him. It felt too good to acknowledge him right in the middle of an orgasm. All while this is going on, Allison screamed at him to get out and I think she said “get the fuck out!” or something. Well her parents heard and they weren't happy about it. Her dad came into the room right after we were able to pull our pants back up and he started yelling her. All while I just sat on her bed all sweaty with of cum filled condom still on my dick. Yeah, it was a little weird.
Well anyway Allison came over after school and we had about an hour and a half to ourselves before my mom got home from work. So of course we did what every teen couple does when they have any time alone in a house. The second we got up to my room, we instantly started making out and our hands were already down each others pants. She pulled my jeans down, and I pulled her pants down. We played with each other for a little while and then she went down on me. I always loved getting head, but what guy doesn't I guess right? It just feels so amazing, and I've always hated the girls that wouldn't do it for you. I mean, I'll gladly go down on you, don't be a bitch, just go down on me. Well, she started sucking, and I ran my fingers through her hair. I always loved feeling her head bob up and down with my hands on the back of her head. She was really good at giving head too, She sucked, swirled her tongue around my dick, used her hand at the same time. She focused on where I was sensitive. Eventually she twisted her body over mine and we were 69'ing. I didn't particularly like the taste of a girls vagina, but I did it just because I know they like it. Besides, Allison doesn't like it when I stick my tongue like, inside of her anyways. She just liked it when I focused on her clit, which isn't so bad.
After about ten minutes of doing that, Allison started to bob her head up and down really fast and she was pumping her hand faster. She really knew how to make it feel really good, after a minute started to swirl her tongue around my dick and she knew that felt amazing to me. I started to buck my hips up and down into her mouth and I felt the head of my dick pushing against the back of her mouth. I couldn't even focus on licking her clit anymore because it felt so good. I felt that I was about to cum.
“Allison, I'm gonna cum stop.” She just ignored me. She kept bobbing her head up and down, swirling her tongue, and pumping her fist. After a few seconds I released my load and it shot directly to the back of her mouth. She slowed down a little bit, but she kept sliding her head up and down my dick. I was moaning in pleasure as I shot spurt after spurt into her mouth. I could feel some of the cum slide out of her mouth and down my dick. When I was done she climbed off of me and looked at me with her mouth full and grinned. She then walked out of my room and to the bathroom like she always did to spit it all out. I could hear the water running in the sink and I heard her gargle some water. I still lied there on my back breathing heavily with my dick still out. Allison walked back into my room and smiled.
“Clean yourself up, you pig,” she laughed.
“Shut up.” I got off my bed and shuffled to the bathroom with my pants around my ankles. I cleaned up, pulled my pants back up and walked back to my room. Allison was already laying down under the covers.
“Do you want to have sex?” I asked.
“Not really, can we just cuddle?”
“Yeah.. fine. We always cuddle.”
“Fine, we can just sit on opposite ends of the bed and watch TV like brother and sister.”
“Okay okay.. we can cuddle. I was just saying, why don't we go out to eat or something?”
“Sure, when I'm actually hungry though. It's three right now.”
“Okay sounds good.”
I got under the covers next to her and we spooned and just watched TV. I really loved cuddling, I really did. It's just sometimes all we do is have sex and cuddle. But I guess it isn't really our fault, I mean sometimes this area can get pretty boring so that's what we do. I mean we still go out a lot but, we mostly just hang out at each others houses. Most of the time my house because we have the most privacy here. After cuddling for a while my mom came home, and I heard her walking up stairs. She came into my room and saw us cuddling.
“Oh hey honey.” she said to Allison, she would never call me honey. But she did have a few nicknames for me when I was little.
“Hey Mrs.______ How are you?”
“Good, how about you?”
“That's good, well Bren how was school?”
“Good.” I rolled over from under the covers to look at her. “It was a long week.”
“Yeah, and the weekend is gonna go by real fast like usual,” she said.
“Okay well I'll be downstairs, I'll start dinner soon.”
“Actually we're going out to eat,” I said.
“Oh.. okay. Where are you going?”
“We don't know yet, where do you want to go Allie?”
“I don't care.”
“Yeah, we don't know yet.”
“Okay well, I'll be downstairs.”
After a little while I fell asleep and we took a nap together. We woke up at about six and we decided to go out to eat. I told my mom that I would see her later and we left. It was a nice dinner, we decided to get Mexican food and after our date was over I dropped her off home. We gave each other our kisses good bye and I left for home. I got home past eight and my mom was asleep on the couch with the TV on. I looked at her for a few moments and then went into the kitchen to get some water. Gulped that down, then went up to my room. I played some video games, texted Allison and eventually fell asleep.
I then woke up to go pee. I got out of bed and walked down the hall to the bathroom. I always hated turning on the light to go to the bathroom to aim, so I always to sat down and went pee like a girl so I didn't have to aim. As I was peeing I heard something. A moan. Not like a groaning moan, a moan of pleasure, and it was my mom. When I was done peeing I didn't flush the toilet and I walked to her door silently. I don't know why I decided to spy on her, but for some reason I did. I sat listening out side of her bedroom door, and I heard her mumbling and moaning. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I couldn't believe I was actually spying on my mom. I was listening to my mom masturbate. I got a little ballsy and I tried to peek through the crack in the door. I couldn't see anything so I pushed it open a little bit and I could see her. The moonlight from the window was shining into the room and I could see her almost perfectly. She was lying on her back and she was fingering herself with one and and she held her phone in the other. Her eyes were burned into the screen as her fingers rubbed on her clit and slid in and out of her. I was watching her for at least ten minutes and my cock rose up in my pants. I couldn't believe I was getting turned on from watching my mom masturbate. I put my hand down my boxers and I started to rub my dick lightly and slowly as I watched my mom masturbate. Then she said something that really ignited my lust for my mom. She started to moan louder and louder and then.
“Oh fuck.. fuck I'm gonna cum. Brendan I'm cumming, I'm cumming all over your dick.” My eyes grew wide, I stopped rubbing my dick and I stared at her for a moment before I quietly crept back into my room. Was my mom really fingering herself to the thought of me? Then I realized something, she had a phone in her hand. Could she really possibly have done what I'm thinking she did? I had to find out.
The next morning I woke up to the alarm I set on my phone. The same time that my mom gets in the shower. I heard the shower running and I quickly jumped up from my bed. I ran across the hall as quietly and possible and into her room. Her phone was plugged into the wall next to her bed. I walked into the room and picked up her phone (man that phone is ancient), then took a deep breath. I unlocked it simply by pressing OK and I went to her pictures. Nothing was there really other than the default pictures and some pictures of friends. I looked at her inbox and there they were. Pictures sent from me, that I never sent. She had all the nude pictures that were on my phone, on her phone. I couldn't believe it. I felt disgusted, but also some what turned on at the same time. My mom was masturbating to me, and I caught her doing it! I looked at the pictures for a minute and then I heard the shower turn off. I quickly put the phone back and walked back into my room as quietly as possible, and got back into bed. I pretended to be asleep when my mom walked by my bedroom to go downstairs.
I couldn't believe she would do that. She sent the pictures from my phone, to her phone. Then deleted the sent pictures from my phone to make it look like she never did it! I thought my mom wouldn't be able to figure out my phone like that. I couldn't believe it. Yet at the same time, I was turned on. I was extremely horny at that moment so I decided to masturbate as my mom was downstairs. I masturbated to the thought of my mom, of her fingering herself. I imagined her giving me head, her fucking me. I was sexually fantasizing about my mom as I was masturbating. Eventually I felt the need to cum, and I came into my hand. I walked to the bathroom and cleaned up then walked back to my room. I fell asleep for maybe about two more hours until I started my day. The day was a regular Saturday, I hung out with my friends. We hung out in one of my friends basements and we talked, played Madden that's about it. Nothing too crazy this weekend. Well, I drove back home at around midnight and went up to bed. Before I went to bed I tried to listen and she if my mom was masturbating again but I didn't hear anything so I went to bed.
I then woke up to my mom's voice.
“Brendan, I can see your penis.” I realized that I wasn't under the covers and I was on my back. I felt that my dick was poking out of the side of my boxers and I had morning wood. I was too embarrassed to do anything so I just pretended to still be asleep. I heard my mom walk closer to me.
“Bren, you awake?” My mom nudged me a little bit. Then she did something that is considered extreme taboo. She lightly wrapped her hand around my dick. She then started rub it a little bit, then she pulled back suddenly and whispered to herself. “What the fuck are you doing Emily? Stop.” She then pulled my boxers over my erect penis and walked out of the room. I couldn't believe she did that, but at the same time I wasn't surprised. My mom for whatever reason was lusting for me, and I was lusting for her too. I wanted her, bad. So I made a plan.
The whole day went by so slow. It was the worst Sunday ever. My homework seemed to take forever, I played video games to pass time, I even masturbated to try and pass time. Nothing seemed to be helping but finally it got a little late and I could at least go to bed without my mom thinking it was weird to go to bed so early. So I told her I was really tired and that I was going to bed. It was about a half hour before her bedtime at 10. She likes to watch TV until 10. So I went to bed and started to masturbate, to the thought of my mom. I controlled my pace so I could cum at the right time. I heard my mom walking up the stairs and I started to moan and breath heavy. I instantly heard my mom's foot steps go silent. I purposely left my door open a crack so she could see. After a few moments I knew my mom was looking through the crack in my door and I knew that it was the right time to cum. I started to pump my dick furiously and I felt my load trying to push out. I then moaned out loud.
“Oh fuck mom.. mom I'm cumming. I'm gonna cum inside of you,” and I came all over my stomach. I sat there breathing heavy and I took a quick peek at the door and I saw a shadow of movement. Perfect, she was watching. Phase one was complete.
I went to the bathroom to clean up and then all I had to do was wait. I was in bed wide awake for about an hour before I heard anything but sure enough there it was. Moaning from my mom. I then got up quietly and crept across the hall sneakily. Her door was open a crack and I wondered if she did it on purpose or not, like I had. There she was masturbating in the dark. She was moaning and a couple of times I heard her mumble my name. I could feel my dick getting hard. After a few minutes I then got the guts to say something.
“Mom are you okay?” I called. She went dead silent. “Mom?”
“Umm.. yeah Bren I'm fine.” I walked into the room and she was under the covers.
“Were you crying?”
“Uh.. yeah. I'm just a little upset about something,” she lied.
“Oh, what is it?”
“Nothing just one of my friends.”
“Mom.. I know what you were doing.”
“You.. you saw?” her voice cracked.
“Yeah and I heard everything, including what you were saying. I saw you last time too with your phone, and I know what you were looking at too.” She was dead silent. “Mom?”
“I.. I don't..”
“Mom.. I'm really hard right now.”
“You were turning me on.”
“I'm sorry.. this isn't right I don't know whats wrong with me,” she squeaked.
“Nothing is wrong with you mom, remember we talked about this a while ago. It's normal to have these feelings.”
“I'm your mother! It's different.”
“Mom, look how hard I am.” Her eyes traveled down to the tent in my boxers.
“No, we can't,” she said as she continued to stare at my hard on. I walked up to her and stood next to her bed. Her eyes were flickering back and forth from my face to my dick, back and forth, back and forth. I grabbed the blanket and pulled it off of her. She had her pajamas down to her ankles and her pussy was exposed to me. I turned on the lamp next to me and it made us both squint.
“No stop it! You shouldn't see me like this!”
“Mom you saw me naked!”
“That was by accident!” she protested.
“Was it an accident to send them to your phone, and masturbate to them!” She was silent. “Mom I want you, and you know that you want me. We can't live like this.” She then turned her head away and reached her arm up and slid her hand under my boxers. She grabbed my dick lightly and started to rub it slowly. I couldn't believe that this was actually happening.
“This is all that we are doing, no further,” she said. I decided not to push her so I stayed silent. She started to rub her hand faster. It was starting to feel really good after a few minutes.
“Mom can I sit down on the bed next to you?” She moved over, still without looking at me. I sat down next to her and I pulled my boxers down. Her hand found my dick again and she continued. “Mom this feels really good,” I moaned. “Mom will you stop looking away like that? You are making me feel awful.” I saw her other hand go up and wipe her eyes and she then turned to me.
“We shouldn't be doing this. You are my son.”
“Why can't we do this? Because everyone says that we can't? Because it is bad in everyone's eyes? Who cares what everyone thinks? Besides we just won't tell anyone.”
“I guess,” she mumbled. I leaned over and gave her a quick light kiss on the lips. Not a mother to son kiss. A quick kiss that lovers share and express with each other.
“Mom it's okay, I will always love you no matter what.”
“Okay.” She then looked down at my dick and started to stroke it a little faster. I reached from under her arm and touched her pussy.
“Can I?” She looked at me and nodded. I smiled and continued. I slid my finger inside of her, I slid it in and out for a few moments, then I went on to rub her clit. We were playing with each other for a quite a while. She was pumping my dick faster, and I was fingering her fast. Pushing my fingers inside of her, and rubbing her clit also. We were both moaning and I looked at her, we then made eye contact. I smiled and gave her another light kiss. I felt the cum rising up. I was going to cum in a few seconds.
“Oh shit.. mom I'm going to cum, can I cum please?”
“Yes Bren, cum I'll catch it.” That's all I needed to release my load. It wasn't very big because I had masturbated a lot over the past day but still, it was enough. My cum shot out and she caught all of it with her other hand as she continued to pump my dick slowly. After I released my last spurt she squeezed out the rest of the cum that was inside of my dick and wiped it up with her finger.
“Thank you mom, that was amazing.”
“Good, I'm glad that you liked it. Get to bed now, You have school in the morning.”
“Okay.” I stood up and pulled my boxers up. My mom also stood up and pulled up her pajamas with one hand, and my cum in the other hand. I walked out of the room and my mom followed close behind and she went into the bathroom behind me. I then stopped as I heard the faucet turn on.
“Mom?” I called.
“Can we do this again? I really liked it.”
“We'll talk about it later okay? Get some sleep.”
“Okay. Goodnight mom.”
“Goodnight.” And I walked to my room.
There is a lot more that happened, but I have to take a break from writing this stuff eventually. I have been writing for hours and it feels good to actually get it out. Even if nobody reads this, it still feels good to get it written down. I made a email so if anyone wants to talk about anything go ahead. Trust me this is a real email that I made, so go ahead and email me if you really want to. But don't bother asking for too much information about my life, because I won't give it to you. Well here it is, Brendanem3@yahoo.com. Thank you for reading. I'll be writing a lot more in the near future, because there is A LOT more stuff to cover about this. This is just the beginning.