Gender: Male Age: 20 Location: UK
“Oh, screw you! Screw you, Louis Tomlinson!” was the exact thought going through Liam Payne’s head. He had to go and look really sexy on tonight of all nights. A sell out at the O2 Arena; their biggest concert date yet and he does and wears his black skinny jeans and a striped t-shirt; which was so tight that you could see right through it.
It distracted Liam so much that we forgot the lyrics to “What Makes You Beautiful”. And to make things worse, Louis’ sexy dancing on the stage turned him on even more. It was a good thing that most eyes were on Harry, as he had the most lines to sing in the song, and others focusing on Louis dancing in that sexy way only he knew how.
Liam tried to stop himself form biting his lip and losing track of where he was, but he just couldn’t help it. His mind was close to spiralling out of control. So, he switched his attention away from Louis and started playing the crowd.
As soon as they had finished singing “Gotta Be You”, the last song of the night, which was a relief to Liam, he was first off stage and ran back to the dressing room. He slumped down on one of the sofas, just before the others entered the room.
“You okay, Liam?” Niall concerned. Liam only nodded in response in an attempt to not draw any attention to himself.
They were all dripping with sweat and the air conditioning soon kicked in. Liam removed his drenched shirt and replaced it with a clean one. The others did the same and when Louis did, Liam couldn’t help but look at his exposed body. He was almost caught in the moment by Louis himself, but his eyes quickly diverted away from him.
After a few minute pass by, Louis and Harry pulled Liam into a group hug with the others and still buzzing from the adrenaline, Louis squeezed hard; his body feeling warm against Liam’s in the process. This was to be expected from Louis; because he was never one to pass up on a hug.
Not being able to cope with the tension in his body towards Louis, Liam wriggled his way out of his grip and fled out of the room.
“What’s wrong with Liam?” Harry to the others.
“I don’t know. He’s been acting a little strange for awhile now” Niall in response.
“Well, maybe he just needed to get some fresh air or something” Zayn trying to think of a reason.
Liam ran down several corridors, before eventually finding himself outside. He had decided to leave the building itself, because the way his body was feeling towards Louis before he left the room and on a night like this, he could’ve just jumped him there and then. And that certainly would’ve got an eyeful of attention from the others.
Liam rang for a taxi to take him back to their luxury apartment, which was still quite far from the O2. I could’ve walked back himself, but the state that his mind was in at the moment, he knew he had to set down and think things through.
After about fifteen minutes, Liam received a text message from Zayn asking him where he was. He didn’t bother texting him back, because he just wanted to be alone with his thoughts for awhile before they got back themselves.
As soon as he got back to the flat, Liam got himself a bottle of water from the fridge and went upstairs. He sat on his bed, with his back against the wall in the darkness and silence of his bedroom.
Every so often, Liam would take a swig from the bottle, while the thoughts ran around in his head.
Liam had these feelings towards Louis for some time now and it had all started when they were doing an interview on the radio and Louis was just fooling around as usual. Liam liked that about Louis; he was really funny and always made him laugh and smile no matter how weird some of the things he did were.
Anyway, in this particular, Louis was stood next to Liam and went to put his arm around him. And there wasn’t anything wrong with that. In fact, ever since they had formed as a group on the X Factor, they had often been seen with their arms around each other. That was how close they were together as a group. But on this occasion, Louis reached down a little further than Liam’s shoulder, as he grabbed his nipple and twisted it. Liam didn’t make a sound that was audible enough to be heard, but he did react and fell back into Louis, who was laughing along with Zayn after they’d shared a joke only moments before. Liam had managed to maintain his balance and when Louis attempted to do it again, Liam stopped him by holding his hand and keeping it in-between his shoulder and chest. Liam played with his hand; teasing and frustrating him in the process. He could see the frustration on Louis’ face as he did this and couldn’t help but smirk to himself.
Another time was during another interview and they were sat next to each other and while Liam was talking, Louis got hold of his free hand, the other was holding a microphone, and it became entwined with his own. This was when all the commotion began about Liam and Louis having an even closer relationship than the others in the group. Especially Louis and Harry. And this was when the “LiLo” bromance talk all started. Their fans were already really obsessed with the bromances going on within the band. Liam and Louis were forming a close friendship and had been spending a lot more time around each other up until now. This development had reached their fans and now were talking about their bromance a lot more than the others.
Now, even though Liam didn’t show too much reaction to it as revealing that he had feelings for Louis, on other separate occasions this has happened too and it has had an impact on how he feels towards him. They didn’t always see eye-to-eye during the early days, but they’ve become much closer in recent moments, especially after they’d hit the number one spot in the chart.
However, ever since Liam had developed these feelings for Louis, he had been trying to avoid spending too much time around him, because it would cause him too much pain to not be able to be with him in the way that he wanted so badly. The only times he knew he had to be around him were music video shoots, concerts, interviews etc. Even when they were alone in the flat, which was rare, he had to resist not going anywhere near him, because he knew just how tempting it would be for him.
Liam never showed any discomfort in holding Louis’ hand on other occasions, but he was always tearing up inside and he just wanted to tell him how he felt. There has never been a time when he has come close to telling him, but he’d always thought it through in his head. Most of the time, the outcome had been he and Louis not even speaking to each other again. Their friendship would just fall apart and it would a put a divide on the group; something which Liam didn’t want to happen. He was so happy being a apart of 1D and wanted it to remain that way so much. But he knew he had to tell Louis soon rather than later or risk not being able to stay with the group, because he would just go absolutely crazy.
After about another ten minutes, Liam heard the slamming of car doors outside. He didn’t bother getting up from the lying down position he was in on his bed to go and look out of the window to see if it was the others returning, because he knew it was. To Liam, seeing Louis would just cause even more problems in his head. Especially, now that he’d been thinking about him for the last hour without stopping.
There was suddenly a knock on Liam’s door.
“Liam? Liam, are you in there? We’ve been to Nando’s and brought you back some food” he heard Niall’s sweet Irish accent speak from behind his door and smiled to himself as he heard this.
“Come in” Liam found himself saying and Niall opened the door.
“There you are. What are you doing sitting in total darkness? We brought you back some good. Are you alright?” Niall with come concern in his voice, before switching the light on, walked over towards the bed and sat on the edge of it. “What’s wrong?” he enquired and patted the space next to him. Niall pulled Liam into a side hug. Liam was thankful for having someone like Niall to talk to. Someone who understood and would listen to every word he had to say. He could’ve talked to Harry about it, but he was normally around Louis, and it would be a rare sight to not see them two together. He could have even gone to his best friend Zayn, but something in his mind told him to go to Niall.
“You know you can tell me anything, Liam. Now, come on, what is it?” Niall to Liam, who looks down his hands for a moment, before looking up at Niall again. He saw the “I want to help you” look on his face and that was all the encouragement he needed to tell him about what was going on in my mind.
“You see the thing is, Niall. I have this problem and I believe that you’re the best possible person to ask for advice” to which Niall swiftly responded with “okay”.
“I think I may be… But only for one person. It’s just that… Well…” he hesitated as the words struggled to come out of his mouth.
“It’s okay. Take as much time as you need” Niall advised Liam and patted him on the shoulder. Liam took a deep breath and was finally able to find a way to get the words out without stumbling.
“Niall, I think I might be gay. Or bi. I don’t know. I still feel something for girls. But it’s just that there’s this one boy who drives me completely crazy”
“Is it Louis?” Niall to an amazed Liam.
“How did you know? And does this mean that you’re okay with it?” Liam had many thoughts going through his head at this point and so much he wanted to say, but Niall stopped him.
“Of course I’m okay with it” Niall ruffled Liam’s hair and put his arm around him. “Why wouldn’t I be? If that’s how you feel, then I am cool with it” Liam breathed a sigh of relief as he heard those words. “As for knowing it was Louis. I saw the way you were looking at him earlier; on stage and in the dressing room afterwards. And on several other occasions too. You’re eyes are always full of lust and that kinda gave the game away” Niall smiled at Liam, but he could only smile a weak one back. “Hey, don’t worry. I don’t think the boy himself knows” Niall as he tried to reassure Liam.
“Thanks, Nialler. Would you mind not telling anyone? And also, do you think that I could just talk to you about it? It’s bean hard keeping it all bottled up”
“Absolutely. I won’t tell anyone. And of course we can talk. Now, eat your food” Niall as he handed Liam his plate.
“Because it’s peri-peri chicken and if you don’t, I will!” and this time Liam smiled genuinely.
“Well, at least I’ve got a smile back on your face” Niall as he smiled at Liam.
Liam would sleep well that night, knowing that at least someone knew of his feelings towards Louis. It may not have been Louis himself, but Liam knew he could trust Niall. He hoped.
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