I am a firm believer, that we have no more choice, as to what we are drawn to sexually, than we have over what our taste buds like, when we sit down at the table.
The shame that I felt, as I let the two older black boys, take me out onto the dark school yard, was unreal. But somehow they knew that I would " do it " with them and were taking me out there, to see if the one that had told them was right and not lying to them.
I guess that it wouldn't have been so bad, if I was a girl but I wasn't. I was a boy, a very little and young, almost 12 year old white boy. And that's what they liked about me, the fact that I was white. They didn't seem to care, that I was a little boy and not a girl. All they seemed to care about was having sex with someone [ anyone ] and someone had told them, that I was would suck on them, " If they wouldn't tell." That all that they had to do, was to take their dicks out and show them to me. I hated whoever it was, that had told them. Because even though it was true, there are some things, that boys keep as " secrets " and this was one of mine. The other one being that our boy dog had already mounted and fucked me and I wasn't even 12 years old.
As soon as they had me out on the dark play ground, far enough, they pulled me to the ground and one of them held me, while the other one pulled my pants and underwear off, so I couldn't run away.
They both laughed, when he pulled my underwear down and saw my little boner sticking up and knew that I was excited, in some kind of way.
I kept trying to cover it up but the one holding me down, kept pulling my hands away and playing with it, while the other one kneltdown beside me.
I don't even know what they said, that got me going. All I know is that one minute they had me laying there, with one of them holding me down and the next minute the one that had been standing over us, was down there with us and had me sucking, on his little black boner, as he was kneeling down beside me.
All you could hear in the darkness, were the little sucking and whimpering sounds that I was making on it and the little grunts and groans, coming out of him, as he made me do it.
I could feel his little boner sliding back and forth along my tongue and I'm embarrassed to admit, that it was exciting me, in some strange way.
My little tongue started circling around the little head and all at once he moaned, pulling my head to it, holding it there, as I felt it spitting its 3 or 4 drops of " boy cum " into my mouth and onto my tongue, telling me to, " Eat it " but I couldn't and he got mad at me.
No sooner was it out of my mouth, when the other boy let go of me and took his place, Kneeling down beside my head and slipping his black boner into my still open mouth. Telling me to " Suck it," just like his friend had done.
Feeling the warmth of it on my tongue did something to me and the next thing I knew, I was sucking on it, just like he was telling me too.
When he saw that I wasn't going to fight it, he let go of my head, leaned back on his heels and just watched me do it. Caressing it, with my warm soft tongue, coaxing it to squirt me and not understanding, why.
All at once something gushed out of the end of it and he moaned real loud and said, " Oh shit, I just squirted pee" and both of them laughed.
He didn't even stop, after the pee had squirted, he just kept moving it back and forth, fucking my little white mouth, with his little black boner.
All at once he held real still and moaned, " Aggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, Oh Shit " and i felt his little boner leaving its 3 or 4 drops of " boy cum " on my tongue too. Just like his friend had left his, only 2 or 3 minutes before.
I don't know how long I laid there, after they left. All I know is that tears were running down my cheeks. Not because of what they had done to me but because I had liked it and I didn't understand, why.